4:24 p.m.||||2005-05-04
I will eventually come for a real update. I am alive and well.
You guys. Sigh.
Sober sober sober - hurrah.
Really.
Life is really good and crazy and Josh has some anger issues (Treya I am going to call you but send me your number again, ok, and your address too) cause Dave has some issues and I had worse issues but not that the smoke has cleared I am healthier and so....he's able to express what's really going on in that very soon to be 4 year old head of his.
So I have an incentive sticker chart and a plan. Tonight, one of one nights where I do not have something AA or church related to go to, is the beginning of Josh and Mommy night, and today is the park.
I swear, I wish Supernanny could come to visit, although our situation is nowhere near that rough. Yet. I am having to learn to distinguish what's normal for a 4 year old, for a 4 year old suffering from separation from a parent, and a 4 year old whose sense of entitlement is way out of proportion to reality.
But he's so cool and great and intelligent and WILLFul.
He almost got suspended from freakin preschool. Heh.
Treya treya treya. I think of you often.
I have a really great sponsor now, and a much better attitude now that I'm not too worried about living sober and am just carrying on.
Anyhoo.
Next week I am changing job roles AGAIN. Same salaray and that is really all I give a crap about. It will probably be less stress too. Which I could use. For REAL.
Being a parent is so hard. So sos sososososososososososos.
5:04 p.m.||||2005-04-24
what the???
2:16 p.m.||||2005-02-01
Sick at home with pinkeye - looking at my email inbox makes me sick.
Ugh.
Things are a bit nuts, soon I hope to be in better shape to talk about it. At the moment I can scarcely keep my eyes open...everything is always a story, lately a story I haven'written but still is my own and really quite impossible to follow.
I am less than well.