5:58 p.m.||||2003-03-13

fucking finally
I had a complete meltdown last night at the bar and today is sort of neither here nor there, not out and out sucking, for a birthday, but definitely not birthday.

I am such an emotional jackass at times. I shouldn't have written about abuse here, because the other person I become when I drink apparently stored it and was thinking about it, and after having a pretty public fight with Dave, had to bring that into it. I can't help her, I think I'm done.

Everyone was very sweet to me while I was weeping and falling apart.